some day my prince will come. − 17 February, 2005
Love will find in you in the most unlikely places and on this day it found me. There was an instant connection between us.. like we'd known each other from time out of mind. It was during a time of great turmoil in my life. I was still living with my soon to be ex husband in Mclean, Virginia and things were quite uncomfortable. Along with the grief from losing my father, I grieved a marriage I thought would redeem my hope in love.. and I was stuck there with him, knowing that what was once between us was dead, the corpse of what we were now laid out in the middle of the home we once shared. I had a hard road ahead of me, moving back to my hometown in Sacramento, California.. Leaving behind a life i'd built, a job I loved, and friends that I hadn't got to see hardly as much as I'd liked to. I knew it had to be done, there's just no way two people getting a divorce can live in peace together, let alone in a one bedroom apartment. It was a very dark and hopeless time for me.. I was so afraid.
Michael made me laugh. He made me feel a worthiness I hadn't felt in so long and over the course of a dozen hours, made me feel whole again. that was his power over me, and so soon. We spent that time shortly before a trip to visit my mother, and it was absolutely wrenching to leave, knowing i'd be away from him. During the trip my thoughts kept drifting over and over again to the time we spent together and how he made me feel. He gave me butterflies. He sparked hope in me again.
I was so afraid that by the time I returned he'd have forgotten me. A man's attention is fleeting, or at least that had been my experience. I was so nervous to see if this was the case with him, as part of me already knew I was falling in love.
My fears were unfounded, as his reaction to my return was practically ecstatic, and soon after we confessed to each other our true feelings.
Love will definately find you in the most unlikely places and rarely comes without complications.. though in this case there were far more than the average blooming relationship.
Michael lives just outside of London. We met online, in the MMORPG everquest II. (yes, we are complete nerds). When we met, i was still married and living with my soon to be ex, and on top of that I lied to him about my marital status. I was so afraid that he'd run away. Soon the question of visiting each other came about, and I knew i had to come clean. I felt so horrible about lying.. and also about forging a relationship while still married. Though I knew that the marriage was over, it still felt wrong. It felt devious. it felt seedy. And I knew that doing this would make me the bad guy. I repeatedly asked him if he would have still fallen for me if he'd known the truth of my situation. he repeatedly said yes, and went ahead with plans to meet me in person.
We've had a long distance relationship now for 2 years and 4 months. My hope in love restored. The darkness, betrayed by the light of his heart. We've seen each other 8 times during our relationship, so every visit is sort of like a mini honeymoon. Though it aches so bad to see him go, destroys me really, that's the reality of what my heart chose to take on. I do not regret a single thing. I listened to my heart.. I didnt silence it out of fear and I will never regret the choices I made to lead us to where we are now.
Michael made me laugh. He made me feel a worthiness I hadn't felt in so long and over the course of a dozen hours, made me feel whole again. that was his power over me, and so soon. We spent that time shortly before a trip to visit my mother, and it was absolutely wrenching to leave, knowing i'd be away from him. During the trip my thoughts kept drifting over and over again to the time we spent together and how he made me feel. He gave me butterflies. He sparked hope in me again.
I was so afraid that by the time I returned he'd have forgotten me. A man's attention is fleeting, or at least that had been my experience. I was so nervous to see if this was the case with him, as part of me already knew I was falling in love.
My fears were unfounded, as his reaction to my return was practically ecstatic, and soon after we confessed to each other our true feelings.
Love will definately find you in the most unlikely places and rarely comes without complications.. though in this case there were far more than the average blooming relationship.
Michael lives just outside of London. We met online, in the MMORPG everquest II. (yes, we are complete nerds). When we met, i was still married and living with my soon to be ex, and on top of that I lied to him about my marital status. I was so afraid that he'd run away. Soon the question of visiting each other came about, and I knew i had to come clean. I felt so horrible about lying.. and also about forging a relationship while still married. Though I knew that the marriage was over, it still felt wrong. It felt devious. it felt seedy. And I knew that doing this would make me the bad guy. I repeatedly asked him if he would have still fallen for me if he'd known the truth of my situation. he repeatedly said yes, and went ahead with plans to meet me in person.
We've had a long distance relationship now for 2 years and 4 months. My hope in love restored. The darkness, betrayed by the light of his heart. We've seen each other 8 times during our relationship, so every visit is sort of like a mini honeymoon. Though it aches so bad to see him go, destroys me really, that's the reality of what my heart chose to take on. I do not regret a single thing. I listened to my heart.. I didnt silence it out of fear and I will never regret the choices I made to lead us to where we are now.
Comments:
kga245 (May 23, 2007. 12:38am)
I added a few tags. Hope you don't mind. :-)
CrystallineTulip (May 23, 2007. 05:17am)
What a great story! My hubby and I met on the 'net....on an AOL chat room, actually. I've never tried Everquest, but my neighbor is really into that game (she'll hole herself up in the house all day long when she's playing sometimes!). I'm more of the Sims 2 type. OMG...the first day one of my Sim's new pet had puppies, you would've thought I had won the lottery. My hubby gets so annoyed with me and my Sims some days. ANYWAY...I just re-read this little post of mine and it sounds like I'm on some sort of medication... XoP Sorry! I'll try to stay on topic next time.